CAN YOU U STAND THE RAIN?

Right now for me when it rain it pours...First things were getting semi better as time went on but them all within a matter of a week I have nothing!I keep trying to figure out where did I went wrong in my life for all these things to keep happen to me.Its not even just the things that happen to me last week but for the past 20 years I have been on this earth breathing. The last I cried before this was Friday and that day was overwhelming and just was my breaking point. I really needed someone to talk too but that didnt turn out well and then I realize how alone I am.After that I just cried myself to sleep. This whole weekend has been a blurr to me.I just hurt so bad inside and im so tired of it all. In the past I have kept on pushing because I have always wanted better but now it just seems like whats the point of better?I been holding on for as long as I can only for my mama but this is just too much.I know people who have problems way horrible then mines but i just cant help the way I feel.I just feel so many things right now. Im tired

I don't even know where to start.I feel like my life is empty just like this page. All I want to be is just happy and loved. I have been treated so badly in the past and people are still treating me this way. Sometimes I wonder is it even worth it anymore. I want so many things for my life so badly. I been working so hard to try and get them but there is just so many things in my way. No matter what i do if i fix one problem then there is another problem to fix. I'm not happy at all about anything in my life right now.I just feel like giving it all up and starting over.